Wednesday, May 26, 2010

Miscarriage, Moving, and Missed Sleep

Those are my 3 excuses for having COMPLETELY dropped the ball with this blog. Sorry girls. But I have had a few things to do, and a few things on my mind. Oh and yeah, Lyla and Georgia! :) It hasn't been the easiest spring for me. Georgia has continued to be a poor sleeper, and it seemed like it was getting worse and worse especially around March. Which is when we found out I was pregnant. Wow! That was quite a surprise and definitely took some time to get used to. Here I was in a messy house with mounds of laundry not sleeping, now add on some morning sickness and the thought of another baby! Wow! Yet despite that, we were really excited. Those were weeks when I oscillated between "How the heck am I going to do this!!" and "Aw I love having kids, can't wait til the next one."

And as I was getting used to not sleeping and feeling nauseous and being tired from another life growing, then it stopped. No more baby. Just sadness. And some questions. And the realization that we are so blessed by our families--both by blood and through church. What a blessing it is to have truth spoken to you and meals brought!

And this all happened during Georgie not sleeping well and a week before we moved! We had decided a few months ago to move it with Jonathan's parents (and they graciously agreed) in order to pay off some debt and save some money. So I went to doctor's appointments and raced home to meet a group of ladies to help me pack up my house and put it into storage.

Whew! It's been a lot. So here I sit in the upstairs of my in-laws house, reflecting on God's goodness in my life. A few weeks ago Jonathan had an exhortation to the church,

"You know I was thinking: kids don't make your life any easier. But they do make it better. It's the same as our trials."

Gotta love how my husband communicates: short, simple and profound. That's exactly how I can sum up this spring. I seriously wouldn't trade it. I've grown so much, learned so much, been humbled so much. God is bigger, I am smaller. Isn't that the point of trials in the first place?

So anyway, here I am, back from my blogging hiatus, ready to be the bossy sister and get these girls back to posting! Here's my girls on Easter and as soon as I can get my camera working I'll be posting some updated pics of my girlies.

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